~KuBo88

Well, it's nearing close to the "cutoff point" for my decision. It's between trying uber hard to secure a strong job, a room, and a licence and stay here in San Jose on my own with my friends and small clump of family. The other option is to keep working at Subway until my parents move to Texas and go with them where there is not much of anything out there for me.e
Both are hard, saddening, and dispiseable. But I'm starting to see the second is about my best option. I'm not good enough to find a new job and a new place to live while learning on my own how to balance serious money management right now, but I don't want to go. I can't make up my mind and the more I clean and box up my stuff, the sadder and more frustrated I feel.

I hate this.

My cousin made my awesome new icon. Look and love it!

I'm sitting here just relaxing, listening to some good music. I felt happy again for the first in a considerable while. I'm here "jamming out" in my desk chair, the headphones on my head pumping out cool classic rock. I would like to take this moment to "pimp" my recent deviations in hopes you'd give em a looksee, if not, that's cool. Just wanted to make sure people knew they were there. Well hope things are going good for you guys.

I was lying on my bed not too long ago listening to the afternoon sounds and was inspired to write the following poem. I know what you're thinking; "How could you be inspired to write about the night when it's the middle of the afternoon?" I don't know myself but I like it just the same.

In the presence of moon's bright glow
all that is evil shall go.

The night-time peace brings me to
a state of great ease.

The monsters disapear at my command
and cowar until day's first break.

It is my time to roam,
to add a touch of magic to all I see and hear.

Trees wistle and dogs sing
the night's sweet hymn,
and pay homage to eternal, nocturnal bliss.

As you noticed, I've got more deviations pouring in. That's because I finally got my printer-scanner and I've got alot of stuff I feel deserves to be here. I hope you guys get a chance to see them all and enjoy them as I have.